my last day @ mimos

waktu pg : mood tak berapa elok. sumanya kerana perbualan tak menguntungkan.

tgh ari : org opis dtg bwk bihun yg sungguh sedap rasanya, juga cupcakes yg sungguh comel. aku mkn 2 cups. wktu time mkn tu, rasa segan la plak bila HR suh buat ucapan pe sume. aku ni kalo buat ucapan, kalah la yb. so i decide not to, for the sake of YB sekalian la. kang diorg takde keja plak.

rasa sonok la sbb dpt enjoy ngan kwn2 seopis buat kali terakhir. sempat lg bergamba kat lobi n pantry. bdk2 ni bab bergamba...mmg takleh dilepaskan lah. selagi tak retak lens camera tu, diorg akan terus tersenyum. haha.

lepas mkn, dpt card. org HR yg bg. i felt really appreciated when i got to hold that envelope. dlm kad tu tertulis ol the best wishes n signed by the 70% of members i don know of :P. haha. anyway, rasa terharu tu mmg ada. so many thanks to Riza.

ptg : aku yg sememangnya mls ni bertambah mls pada jam2 terakhir keje ari ni. so i went to challenge my opismate for another round of chess. (pliz note that i loose 3 games to zero during the mornin session.

utk cabaran waktu ptg ni plak, aku berjaya mengembalikan takhta aku sbg king of chess kat opis tu. haha. sungguh gembira sekali.

waktu dekat2 nk blk tu, aku terjpa la mamat sorg ni. so i asked him "kenapa tak blk lg ni??". korg tau dia jwb pe? dia kata "i tak bleh blk lg ni, sbb klo i blk sblm u blk, nnt u tak dpt la nk tgk i menangis". "so i kena blk lps u blk la sbb nnt baru u bleh nmpk i nangis". haha. klaka tul mamat nih. mmg hampeh.. :P

p/s : tiada mangsa terlibat yg menangis sepajang penulisan threadnkalo ini..

Kawan

mula2 skali, apa maksud kawan? klo menurut pandangan aku, kwn ni merupakan insan ciptaan Allah s.w.t yg dijadikan sbg pendamping kita. klo menurut definisi tu, kategori kwn ni mmg luas. kawan boleh terdiri drpd suami/isteri, adik beradik, saudara mara atau sahabat. cukup di situ.

apa kriteria kawan? seorang insan yg memahami hati dan perasaan kita, yg boleh dijadikan tmpt membalas bicara, yang boleh diusik dengan senda gurau dan perli2an yg tidak keterlaluan. dan yg plg penting kawan tu boleh dipercayai! DIPERCAYAI. so kalo terdapat insan2 disekeliling anda yg punya ciri begini, mereka boleh dianggap kwn.

pg ni aku diganggu dgn perbualan tak menguntungkan. seorang yg aku anggap kwn, tp tidak menganggap aku sebagai kwn. so bolehkah dia dianggap kawan? jawapan aku, TIDAK!

begini penjelasannya. hubungan antara manusia dengan manusia mmg kompleks. kerana masing2 terbina dgn peel dan tabiat tersendiri. mmg sukar dijangka perubahannya, kadang terdapat pasang surutnya. itu belom aku fokuskan pada jantina lg. klo entry kali ni mengupas semuanya, mmg tak tido la aku mlm ni.(mesti ramai yg tgk waktu entry ini skrg :P)

kalo seorng manusia itu cuba untuk berinteraksi dgn manusia lain, maka perlu ada kepahaman dan tolak ansur. itu ciri utama kalo mahu berkawan. kalo anda mahu berpoya shj, lupakan semua itu. anda tak layak berkawan dengan manusia. mgkn bangku dan kerusi lbh layak menjadi kawan anda.

kalo c polan A nk berkawan dengan c polan B, maka perlu wujud keserasian dan kepercayaan. tak perlu dikhianati dasar kepercayaan yg terbina tanpa ikatan fizikal, cukup lah saja keyakinan hakiki. kalo tidak ada dasar penting ini, maka anda tidak lah berkawan. anda sedang berpoya sbnrnya.

dan kawan biasanya saling menasihati dan mengingatkan antara satu sama lain. klo tak boleh menasihat, anda sbnrnya bkn berkwn. sekali lg, anda sedang berpoya. agak jelas penjelasan yg aku beri ini, terima kalo anda suka. bole juga muntah kalo tak setuju. ini cuma pandangan ku semata.

dlm perbualan ku yg tidak menguntungkan td, aku baru tersedar, aku sedang berpoya dlm berkawan. sblm ni aku rasa aku berkawan smbil berpoya, rupanya aku yg tak sedar. so pesanan ku, kalo anda betul2 mahu berkawan, ambil masa dan analisa calon kawan anda. pastikan anda dan kawan anda "berkawan sambil berpoya, bkn berpoya sambil berkawan!"

sukar juga tuk dipahami kan? beginilah aku kalo sedang berjiwang. mmg sastera abih. ok sudah2.. nxt entry plz..

p/s : harap rakan poyaan ku tak baca la thread ni. haha

Last working week

so its final. if u follow my previous post, then u'll know for sure that i'm leaving. leaving for good. i hate to face the hippocratic attitude scatteredly laid among office members. if u don like sumthing, say it straight to my face. pretending do no good for both me and you. and it kills deep inside. the last 2 weeks has been a torturing experience for me. i dunno y. but i felt so damn tired and unfocused. so every day i end up teasing my gals mate. sumtimes i annoyed them. and it has been part of my routine to do that. and that what cheers me up. so if u gals reading this, don forgive me. treat that as a souvenir from me. u'll remember having a notorious neighbor soon there after. kinda deja vu wen i recalls back waktu stadi dlu. i hv this fren(a gal) and i use to use her as my punching bag. not in a bad way lah. a good one. she used to seat next to me. and my fav routine is wen i feel sleepy. then i decided to tease her and make a mark on her notes(conteng ler). a lot of time when shes angry, her fair skin tone becomes red. and that is wen i love the most. :D hehe. wen she realize there's a conteng on her ppr, she took an eraser and erase it grumpily. and then i conteng again. and then she erase pulak. after sumtime, she stopped erasing. so i ask her "y don u erase back?". she replied, "i wan this moment to be a part of my studying memories...". and up til today, wen i conteng2, i remembers her. so swit kan?? yes, i knoe. huhu. getting back to the topic. and so i have 4 working days to pretend bz. and tons of work to complete. my plan is to exit gracefully hoping no problems attach. and a plan of walking out of the door with N*sync's hit track < Bye bye bye ! >

Step 2 : Tomorrow

Tomorrow is 28th October, 2008. I plan to tender a 1 month notice period due to my resignation as required in my contract. And since i have another 14 annual days to be taken, i shud shorten my resignation period to just 14 days instead. There's a lot of things going on in my mind rite now. I know for sure that i'll be answering lots and lots of phone calls tomorrow. I don want to lie. Hope to get through tomorrow with less lies(sss).. Huhu.. Wish me luck!

A month to go

I've made up my mind. I want to try new challenges at new place. My sister asks me "What if they counter offer to another 1K?". I replied with a glimpse for an answer. "Not a chance i will take it". So i made it pretty clear. Nothing will change my mind..

Raya photo shoot 2008

I tot it would be nice to include my family members into this blog. :) Cud oso works as my physical repository in the future.

Family shopping

Let me start this way. I have a brother. Very annoying most of the time, sarcastic and heartless. But above all, he is still my brother. I have learned to deal with his attitude. For him,i am always at fault. He has tested my patience double gazilion time. If i can still handle him, he'll be fortunate. Once i loose my temper, im his nightmare. U ever watched the Digi commercial, "Hey, im your brother?? or in malay version, Aku kan abang kau??". That is quite true. He wasn't this rebellious when we grew up, and we use to best friend. But thing has change since he started to criticize every little thing i use to do.

And today, i need to accompany him for a crash Hari Raya shopping. But before that, we went to go bowl with my other brother. Very sibling-hood. I enjoy first half of the game, but as soon as i overlooked at this very familiar face, (one of the crowd in the bowling center) my mood then became unfocused. I then tried my best to win back the game when i realized that im on the loosing side :( But its OK. I enjoy most of the moment. My brother,when he is at less grumble, i feel that the world is very peaceful. :P Its very selfish of me to think of that way. I know that we must accept every body at their good and bad condition. Becoz we are not perfect. So, face it.

Back to the shopping scene. As usual, its very hard to please him. Usually he will comment everything, the thread is out of the way la, the fabric does not suit him best la bla bla bla. I guess, thats the ugly side of having a designer as your brother. He's more on automobile designer to note, not a fashion designer. But his critique is equivalent to the judges seen on a Project Runaway tv show. Me and my younger brother has had rough time to pursuit him on buying his baju melayu for this upcoming Raya occasion.

But i didnt spend much of my time to serve his attitude. I have my own way when come to deal with this kind of situation. When im in shopping mall, with cash in my hand, i need no fren :P. This is true! Becoz i use to live near to shopping mall, and it doesnt occur to be a problem when come to shopping for me. But i rather have a friend to give a second time to give rational view of what i should buy. My younger brother always be my second arbitrator and i value his thought. My fren Loko is a good arbitrator too. Thats y i enjoy his company when come to shopping. He use to give me some sense of why i shud put this or that thing into my shopping cart.

After almost an hour of time wasting moment, my brother has come up with something to buy. I sighted when he agrees to pay for the baju melayu. I on the other hand, doesnt have anything to buy. My younger brother look for his sampin/g(i dunno which one is the correct one) and he decided to buy this one fine looking sampin/g before i come to reason "Hey,this sampin/g doesnt suit your baju melayu la!!". He put it back and we went to browse for other sampin/g. After a moment, i found one sampin/g that suits my baju melayu. I don really crave for this sampin/g as i don really enjoy wearing them. I remember back at home inside the closet, my mum has gold thread crafted songket that can be matched with most of the baju melayu. I was thinking of grabbing that songket la, like wat i did previous yearssss. But this sampin/g in front of me look very dazzle and outstanding glamorous and can complement my this year's baju melayu very well. Although the touches is not very fine (u can c that threads were not properly sewed to complement the overall look and the cutting is quite horrifying) i imagine the big day (hari raya) will be blessed with me having that sampin/g as part of my suit, and the label is quite cheap, i decide just to take it lah. Its for greater cause, don it?? Hehe :P