my last day @ mimos

waktu pg : mood tak berapa elok. sumanya kerana perbualan tak menguntungkan.

tgh ari : org opis dtg bwk bihun yg sungguh sedap rasanya, juga cupcakes yg sungguh comel. aku mkn 2 cups. wktu time mkn tu, rasa segan la plak bila HR suh buat ucapan pe sume. aku ni kalo buat ucapan, kalah la yb. so i decide not to, for the sake of YB sekalian la. kang diorg takde keja plak.

rasa sonok la sbb dpt enjoy ngan kwn2 seopis buat kali terakhir. sempat lg bergamba kat lobi n pantry. bdk2 ni bab bergamba...mmg takleh dilepaskan lah. selagi tak retak lens camera tu, diorg akan terus tersenyum. haha.

lepas mkn, dpt card. org HR yg bg. i felt really appreciated when i got to hold that envelope. dlm kad tu tertulis ol the best wishes n signed by the 70% of members i don know of :P. haha. anyway, rasa terharu tu mmg ada. so many thanks to Riza.

ptg : aku yg sememangnya mls ni bertambah mls pada jam2 terakhir keje ari ni. so i went to challenge my opismate for another round of chess. (pliz note that i loose 3 games to zero during the mornin session.

utk cabaran waktu ptg ni plak, aku berjaya mengembalikan takhta aku sbg king of chess kat opis tu. haha. sungguh gembira sekali.

waktu dekat2 nk blk tu, aku terjpa la mamat sorg ni. so i asked him "kenapa tak blk lg ni??". korg tau dia jwb pe? dia kata "i tak bleh blk lg ni, sbb klo i blk sblm u blk, nnt u tak dpt la nk tgk i menangis". "so i kena blk lps u blk la sbb nnt baru u bleh nmpk i nangis". haha. klaka tul mamat nih. mmg hampeh.. :P

p/s : tiada mangsa terlibat yg menangis sepajang penulisan threadnkalo ini..

Kawan

mula2 skali, apa maksud kawan? klo menurut pandangan aku, kwn ni merupakan insan ciptaan Allah s.w.t yg dijadikan sbg pendamping kita. klo menurut definisi tu, kategori kwn ni mmg luas. kawan boleh terdiri drpd suami/isteri, adik beradik, saudara mara atau sahabat. cukup di situ.

apa kriteria kawan? seorang insan yg memahami hati dan perasaan kita, yg boleh dijadikan tmpt membalas bicara, yang boleh diusik dengan senda gurau dan perli2an yg tidak keterlaluan. dan yg plg penting kawan tu boleh dipercayai! DIPERCAYAI. so kalo terdapat insan2 disekeliling anda yg punya ciri begini, mereka boleh dianggap kwn.

pg ni aku diganggu dgn perbualan tak menguntungkan. seorang yg aku anggap kwn, tp tidak menganggap aku sebagai kwn. so bolehkah dia dianggap kawan? jawapan aku, TIDAK!

begini penjelasannya. hubungan antara manusia dengan manusia mmg kompleks. kerana masing2 terbina dgn peel dan tabiat tersendiri. mmg sukar dijangka perubahannya, kadang terdapat pasang surutnya. itu belom aku fokuskan pada jantina lg. klo entry kali ni mengupas semuanya, mmg tak tido la aku mlm ni.(mesti ramai yg tgk waktu entry ini skrg :P)

kalo seorng manusia itu cuba untuk berinteraksi dgn manusia lain, maka perlu ada kepahaman dan tolak ansur. itu ciri utama kalo mahu berkawan. kalo anda mahu berpoya shj, lupakan semua itu. anda tak layak berkawan dengan manusia. mgkn bangku dan kerusi lbh layak menjadi kawan anda.

kalo c polan A nk berkawan dengan c polan B, maka perlu wujud keserasian dan kepercayaan. tak perlu dikhianati dasar kepercayaan yg terbina tanpa ikatan fizikal, cukup lah saja keyakinan hakiki. kalo tidak ada dasar penting ini, maka anda tidak lah berkawan. anda sedang berpoya sbnrnya.

dan kawan biasanya saling menasihati dan mengingatkan antara satu sama lain. klo tak boleh menasihat, anda sbnrnya bkn berkwn. sekali lg, anda sedang berpoya. agak jelas penjelasan yg aku beri ini, terima kalo anda suka. bole juga muntah kalo tak setuju. ini cuma pandangan ku semata.

dlm perbualan ku yg tidak menguntungkan td, aku baru tersedar, aku sedang berpoya dlm berkawan. sblm ni aku rasa aku berkawan smbil berpoya, rupanya aku yg tak sedar. so pesanan ku, kalo anda betul2 mahu berkawan, ambil masa dan analisa calon kawan anda. pastikan anda dan kawan anda "berkawan sambil berpoya, bkn berpoya sambil berkawan!"

sukar juga tuk dipahami kan? beginilah aku kalo sedang berjiwang. mmg sastera abih. ok sudah2.. nxt entry plz..

p/s : harap rakan poyaan ku tak baca la thread ni. haha

Last working week

so its final. if u follow my previous post, then u'll know for sure that i'm leaving. leaving for good. i hate to face the hippocratic attitude scatteredly laid among office members. if u don like sumthing, say it straight to my face. pretending do no good for both me and you. and it kills deep inside. the last 2 weeks has been a torturing experience for me. i dunno y. but i felt so damn tired and unfocused. so every day i end up teasing my gals mate. sumtimes i annoyed them. and it has been part of my routine to do that. and that what cheers me up. so if u gals reading this, don forgive me. treat that as a souvenir from me. u'll remember having a notorious neighbor soon there after. kinda deja vu wen i recalls back waktu stadi dlu. i hv this fren(a gal) and i use to use her as my punching bag. not in a bad way lah. a good one. she used to seat next to me. and my fav routine is wen i feel sleepy. then i decided to tease her and make a mark on her notes(conteng ler). a lot of time when shes angry, her fair skin tone becomes red. and that is wen i love the most. :D hehe. wen she realize there's a conteng on her ppr, she took an eraser and erase it grumpily. and then i conteng again. and then she erase pulak. after sumtime, she stopped erasing. so i ask her "y don u erase back?". she replied, "i wan this moment to be a part of my studying memories...". and up til today, wen i conteng2, i remembers her. so swit kan?? yes, i knoe. huhu. getting back to the topic. and so i have 4 working days to pretend bz. and tons of work to complete. my plan is to exit gracefully hoping no problems attach. and a plan of walking out of the door with N*sync's hit track < Bye bye bye ! >

Step 2 : Tomorrow

Tomorrow is 28th October, 2008. I plan to tender a 1 month notice period due to my resignation as required in my contract. And since i have another 14 annual days to be taken, i shud shorten my resignation period to just 14 days instead. There's a lot of things going on in my mind rite now. I know for sure that i'll be answering lots and lots of phone calls tomorrow. I don want to lie. Hope to get through tomorrow with less lies(sss).. Huhu.. Wish me luck!

A month to go

I've made up my mind. I want to try new challenges at new place. My sister asks me "What if they counter offer to another 1K?". I replied with a glimpse for an answer. "Not a chance i will take it". So i made it pretty clear. Nothing will change my mind..

Raya photo shoot 2008

I tot it would be nice to include my family members into this blog. :) Cud oso works as my physical repository in the future.

Family shopping

Let me start this way. I have a brother. Very annoying most of the time, sarcastic and heartless. But above all, he is still my brother. I have learned to deal with his attitude. For him,i am always at fault. He has tested my patience double gazilion time. If i can still handle him, he'll be fortunate. Once i loose my temper, im his nightmare. U ever watched the Digi commercial, "Hey, im your brother?? or in malay version, Aku kan abang kau??". That is quite true. He wasn't this rebellious when we grew up, and we use to best friend. But thing has change since he started to criticize every little thing i use to do.

And today, i need to accompany him for a crash Hari Raya shopping. But before that, we went to go bowl with my other brother. Very sibling-hood. I enjoy first half of the game, but as soon as i overlooked at this very familiar face, (one of the crowd in the bowling center) my mood then became unfocused. I then tried my best to win back the game when i realized that im on the loosing side :( But its OK. I enjoy most of the moment. My brother,when he is at less grumble, i feel that the world is very peaceful. :P Its very selfish of me to think of that way. I know that we must accept every body at their good and bad condition. Becoz we are not perfect. So, face it.

Back to the shopping scene. As usual, its very hard to please him. Usually he will comment everything, the thread is out of the way la, the fabric does not suit him best la bla bla bla. I guess, thats the ugly side of having a designer as your brother. He's more on automobile designer to note, not a fashion designer. But his critique is equivalent to the judges seen on a Project Runaway tv show. Me and my younger brother has had rough time to pursuit him on buying his baju melayu for this upcoming Raya occasion.

But i didnt spend much of my time to serve his attitude. I have my own way when come to deal with this kind of situation. When im in shopping mall, with cash in my hand, i need no fren :P. This is true! Becoz i use to live near to shopping mall, and it doesnt occur to be a problem when come to shopping for me. But i rather have a friend to give a second time to give rational view of what i should buy. My younger brother always be my second arbitrator and i value his thought. My fren Loko is a good arbitrator too. Thats y i enjoy his company when come to shopping. He use to give me some sense of why i shud put this or that thing into my shopping cart.

After almost an hour of time wasting moment, my brother has come up with something to buy. I sighted when he agrees to pay for the baju melayu. I on the other hand, doesnt have anything to buy. My younger brother look for his sampin/g(i dunno which one is the correct one) and he decided to buy this one fine looking sampin/g before i come to reason "Hey,this sampin/g doesnt suit your baju melayu la!!". He put it back and we went to browse for other sampin/g. After a moment, i found one sampin/g that suits my baju melayu. I don really crave for this sampin/g as i don really enjoy wearing them. I remember back at home inside the closet, my mum has gold thread crafted songket that can be matched with most of the baju melayu. I was thinking of grabbing that songket la, like wat i did previous yearssss. But this sampin/g in front of me look very dazzle and outstanding glamorous and can complement my this year's baju melayu very well. Although the touches is not very fine (u can c that threads were not properly sewed to complement the overall look and the cutting is quite horrifying) i imagine the big day (hari raya) will be blessed with me having that sampin/g as part of my suit, and the label is quite cheap, i decide just to take it lah. Its for greater cause, don it?? Hehe :P

I don want to care anymore!

Pg ni smpai opis awl giler.. Spatutnye lg awal, tp sebab jam yg agak memeluatkan aku, lbt gak la 5 menit dr waktu aku yg aku target kan. I arrived at 810AM to the office. Mmg agak hangin gak le ngan traffic jam. Esok aku nk masuk opis kol 830 ler. Seb baik ada 2 option.

Morning routine. Switch ON pc, get Outlook open and check for new mail messages from bosses. None today. Just hv a meeting at 9AM. Not a meeting actually, but more of a review. And i am one of the reviewer. So i think i need to prepare myself a bit.

Next, i check all the free emails inboxes ie Hotmail, Yahoo, Gmail. All at one go.
Then rasa cam tergerak lak nk check out blog "bdk" tu. Dah agak dah. MEsti nk komen psl aku lg. Tp takpe la. Agak mendidih gak ler. Niat aku baik. Bkn aku tegur or kritik, but more of a giving solution. Bcos i tgk kepala dia cam berat semacam jerk. Mmg aku dah agak dia akan tulis psl tu, sbb lepas aku ckp jer, reaksi muka dia tros berubah. Again, i'm sory. I meant to say sumthing else after that, but after seing his reaction, i withdrawn the conversation. Kiamat nnt la aku bgtau ko. Or in other word, i don wan to care anymore. U'll nvr be a friend i expected. Maybe i put too much hope on you. Now everything chaged. Thank you. I mean it!

2nd post

I have a dream this morning. I slept after Sahur and Subuh. This is Ramadhan. No devils rite??
So this is the story. I dreamt of an old fren of mine. We use to be fren in primary school. But not for long. He was a new student in my class. We tagged along quite well, but months after that, i need to move to new place. New school la. Since then, we never have contacted or whatsoever until today.
But today i met him in my dream. From what i could remember, he's so kind and gentle. I more thing i could remember about him, is he has a very nice handwriting. Very nice. Bulat2 tulisan dia. I remember one time, when our school organize a "Pertandingan Tulisan Tercantik" i sat next to him. In this competition, we need to write to given text with the best looking handwriting we can produce and then submit the paper. I adore his handwriting so much, that i try to copy his "bulat2" handwriting into mine. I really thought that he will be the winner, and i wouldnt stand a chance to even to be compare to him, but the result turns out otherwise. I won!! There's only one winner in this competition. No second place.

I also remember that we used to ride bikes during our school day. And playing badminton. Although we didnt get the chance to get to know each other for a long time, but i can still remember him clearly. In his child image la. I wonder how he looks like today..

So, about my dream. We met in a coffee house with few other frens i don know their name of. We have a long chat. But i couldn't remember it all. But in the end of my dream, i ask him, what do you do for living? He replied with this "TUKANG MAHIR". Then suddenly my alarm destroys everthing. WTF!!! I'm not sure what that job really mean. Maybe he's trying to say that he is working for some furniture shop. I dunno. So if you know this guy, namely Mohd Shahrul Nizam, age 24(in 2008) pliz let me know. I want to meet him. I think he's trying to tell me sumthing, but thanks to the alarm, he cant!

Not so bad, day ;)

I arrive to the office at 10 minutes late today. Bkn aper, sbb air kat umah slow gler, tak leh nk cpat2. Aku ni dah la jenis yg mandi
lama2... Hihi.. Bkn ape. Amik mood je tu. Aku suke dok dlm toilet rilek2, smbil baca magazine. Smpei krem lutut kadang2 tu..
Huhu..


Masuk je opis ada requirement book review. Kelam kabut la gak, sbb aku baru tau jer. Part aku lak tue.. Dlm hati, "jenuh la nk menjwb nnt..
dh la aku mmg lupa apa yg aku buat sblm ni. Skali nk kena review la pulak...". Masuk je dlm meeting room, teruk gak la aku kena hentam.
Plg best tu, bos dh pandai2 ubahkan apa yg buat without letting me know at all.. Mmg ternganga la aku mcm org bengong. Tak tau nk jwb cane.
Aku pasrah je la. Seb bek aku kena yg plg awl. So suma org mcm baru warm up la. Takde la kena teruk sgt.. Alhamdulillah..


Abih je pastu, aku lepak la jap ngan kwn2.. Gosip skit2. Datin Sri sorg ni pun bukak la blog mamat ni(1 opis gak la). Ada la sindiran
tu mcm kena batang idung aku. Mula2 aku cool jer. Tp bila dah baca smpai abih, aku tak rasa pun yg aku ptt diperslhkan 100%. Mgkn 40-50%
la kot sindiran dia tu benar. Tros ilang mood la jap. Gosip lg... Aku mls la nk biarkan hal tu merosakkan mood aku 1 ari ni. So aku cheer kan
diri aku ngan g show room keta ngan kwn2 opis. (Nama takmo sebut ke kwn??) Ok lah, aku sebut. Aku g ngan Rizal ngan Irfan huhu. Lupa jap la psl hal td.
Tu le bezanya kwn laki ngan pompuan. Man don look into detail into crap like this. Let it go, man Let it go!!
Go enjoy urself

Masuk blik opis, aku rasa cam nk baca blk blog td.(Empunya diri aku tkmo sbut. Rasanya org dah tau). Aku geleng kepala je la. Aku tak sangka
plak aku bleh mendatangkan damage sebegitu. So if u read this, i apologize. Lets start again. But u shud hv open up more to let me understand more of you.
In and Out!! U can b mad at me for being annoying, its ok. I admit. I don want to make trouble. Maybe u can help me to be a better person.. Lets change.


My head starts to spin when i keep on thinking about this thing. Not to make things worse, i think i want to stop here. G smyg bg ilang
masalah ni.. Huhu.. Smoga dpt solution nye......

1st Ramadhan 2008

Forgive the long silence. Bkn aper, aku lupa matching log in and pwd for this account.. Huk huk.. Silly me :P.

Ari ni, Sept 1, 2008, ari cuti. This is due to yesterday's 51st independence day celebration for M'sia. And since the independence day falls on Sunday,public holiday be postpone to today. And as i am working in the state of KEdAH,tomorrow will be another "work-less" day as Kedah state admin has announced that the 1st day of Ramadhan, or so called Ramjan by my Indian fren, is declared as public holiday. So in short, i will only return to work on Wed. Uishhh..what a relief sigh.. I still hope to hv a full holiday this wik. That's me being selfish.

For this year's Ramadhan, i plan to undergo a total body cleansing or in other word Massive Fat Loss program. I need to flush at least 5kgs minimum by the end of this month. I hope im not being too ambitious. I really think that 5kgs is not a fantasy figure, and i can digest more than that. Trust me!!

To achieve my target, i need to apply changes to my lifestyle. My eating habit to be exact. No more oily foods, half the diet taken during bulan tak poser, and more sunat Tarawikh.
I will monitor my progress daily, and hope to achieve something by the end of this week.


Tata

Fever

I woke up early.  Couldn't catch one resty sleep. I feel tired. And boresome.

I took a shower with the laziness one can describe. It was cold.

The tought of goin to the clinic and request of MC stunged me. But i wasnt sure i can get one.

I can feel the sturdiness deep inside. I will struggle today.

I arrived at the office lobby. Swipe my card. I watch the digital digit displayed

on the display panel. I am 3 minutes before 830. Pheww..

As i sat down and start my pc, the air cond starts to live.

Time ni ler rasa sejuk giler babeng.I can hear the air cond whispers.. "Dey tambi, go home  la. What r u doin here??" Cinabeng btol la air cond ni. Makin lama makin sejuk la pulak. Tetibe kepala rasa cam kena cengkam. Pening siots. Rase mcm nk muntahs puns ada gaks. Aku masih nk bertahan..

At 930, i need to test on the new sensors which the KL people delivered last Friday.

Dengan penuh kesabaran nye, aku mencuba switch on the sensor gateway wpun aku tau akan ada masalah punyer. Mmg betol le sangkaan aku.. Dekat stgh jam mencuba, result msh mcm hampeh. I email my boss and the person incharged for the sensor setting. Lama gak la menunggu. Last2, hampehs.. No reply. Lantakla.

Pale makin penings. Aku pun makin fed up. Dah le ari ni tak seceria hari2 biasa.

Biasa la. Lazy Monday! Ppl still on holiday kot. T'igt cuti sabtu ahad tak abih lg kot. Pheww.. Boring 2x.. I then gTalked my boss. "Boss,I'm not feeling well. I wanna go to the clinic". "Go lah, if u think u need MC, take lah". Sempoi betol bos aku nih. Takpe la. Sampai je klnik, ramai gile org. Aku ronda2 dlu. Drive pusing kwsan. Aku ni umpama YB kalah pilihanraya. Kempunan tgk kawasan. Haha.After a while, i went back to the clinic. Decided to try my luck. In order to get the MC, i need to pretend sick la. I can act better than Rosyam Nor i think. Yacks!! HAte him. Hehe :D. 

As i queue and wait for my turn to arrive, i wonder what kind of excuses can i kelentong the doctor. Hmm.. This is tough. So i prepare series of scripts. Seb bek aku suka baca bab kesihatan. I can easily point out symptom of diseases. U name it. Skrg ni popular demam denggi. Tp aku cuak lak nnt kalo dia saspek aku. Tak psl2 kena amik darah, antar g lab la. Pjg plak citernye. Uish, cannot la like this. Withdrawn. 

Boring btol tggu. Demam aku yg tak kuat mana ni pun mcm nk ok dah. Konpem tak dpt MC nih. Takpe la. Dpt time slip pun jd la. Aku bole je nk keje pasni. Cuma pening je skit, tak dpt nk concentrate. 2 more patient b4 i can go in..

10 minutes later, my name was called. So i masuk muka slambers jer.

Assalamualaikum, Dr. Dia pun salam2 sumer nih. Bgus tul doktor ni. Muda lg, baik lak tu.

So aku pun bg la serba sedikit synopsis penyakit. "Last nite, i got 40 degree of Celcius fever, diorrhea, cough with phlegm, thick mucus in the bronchial passages to be exact and i felt dizzy up till now..". "I also have recurring ulcer at the same spot. I suspect i endured a lot of stress la doc.." Dia pun mcm tekujut dgr diagnosis aku, cuma dia tak tnya je aku ni doktor ke tak mcm doktor2 sblm ni. Haha. I always come prepared la doktor, aku ckp dlm hati ler... So he began normal checking, inhale, exhale, bp check. I did well, i think. And pass with flying colors. The doctor asked me wether i need an MC or not, and i nodded with a but, "I think half day MC will do." He agrees. We shook hand and then i wait outside. 

I need to get back to the office, before i can resume my half day off.

I handed my MC to the OA(Office Admin) and then emailed my boss, "Boss, i wont come in after lunch". Then i kemas2 skit meja yg bersepah tue, shut down PC and then go to lunch with Eros, my so call neighbour at workplace.

Then only i came home. Took the medicine and sleep.

And then snored.. ZZzzzZZzzz..

--Finish--

1st Edition

Finally,

after years of considering, yes i mean YEARS, 

i finally found courage to publish my own blog space.

I've been writing in tech forums and friendster blogs

unofficially, but now , i think that its the time 

for gentle readers to get my personal opinion here.

Take note that my writing is not all about myself but 

will linger around my surronding and workspace

and interest.

I will open comments for certain issues that i think requires 

feedback. But for now, take a rest and enjoy reading.

Chao wao. I rest my case for today.. ;-)